Society (and school) says I do. Well that's a scary thought, because really if you take all that into account, I basically have to decide who I am. Which scares me witless. I don't have a clue who I really am. I know what I like, what I don't like, what I'm good at, what I'm bad at, but does that define who I am? That seems kinda superficial, even incorrect. I mean, am I defined by what I'm good at? What if I'm good at something but I hate doing it? Should I still put my emphasis in that area just because I'm good at it? I tend to think not.
Suffice to say that I don't know what to do. At one point in the recent past I went ahead and asked someone who I hold in very high esteem (a hero of mine, actually) what to do, and honestly, I didn't really expect an answer because he's kindof, well, famous. He actually did answer me, which in itself was really cool, but what he said was even cooler: "Don't be stressed that you don't know your true spot in life. Not many people do. Not even me. ... You should just live Christ." Now, when he said he didn't know his place in life either, that pretty much astonished me. I was like seriously? You're a famous musician/author! How can you possibly not know what you're doing? It made me think. How many people actually do know where they're supposed to be? Probably not nearly as many as we think or as many who claim to know.
Which brings me to the last part of what he said: "Just live for Christ." Well it doesn't get much simpler than that, but you know what? He's right. God's gonna get me to where I need to be when I need to be there. As if to emphasize this point the next song that came up on my itunes while on shuffle was "I Give Up" by Stellar Kart. Really, that's all I have to do. Yeah, I'm still going to have to make decisions, obviously, but I don't have to do it all. I just have to give it to God, and he'll take it in his hands. He'll take care of it. Kindof a relief, not gonna lie.
P.S. Song reference- this is a youtube of Stellar Kart's "I Give Up." Check it out, it's a goooooood song.